CONFidence

This is probably one of the craziest and most complicated words out there. Everywhere you turn something is telling you should show confidence, be confident with your work, be confident with your body, bla bla bla. Well today as I was sitting trying to figure out my work and not really knowing what my next move should be I thought about the confidence word. It is sometimes so hard trying to keep your head held high and think that you can do anything when there are these flashing red lights telling you you can't. Yes I know you have to just keep going and think that you are fantastic and at some point maybe you will believe yourself. But then if you are too confident then people perceive you to be a snob and stuck up and that isn't the goal either. SO where is the fair balance when it comes to personality? Is there really one?

Let's move on to weight. We (especially girls) are bombarded that they have to be this size now like negative 10 to be attractive but really that's not pretty. Then we have things telling us that you have to have great looking legs (really I mean who has ever seen someone with pretty knees), arms shouldn't be flabby, no stomach ( so don't eat all that yummy food) and the list goes on. Now if you have been following me you know that I am on this long (and I mean long) journey to becoming healthier and yes ultimately skinner. And maybe I am not the most dedicated person to a new fitness routine ( I will admit it) but I have been consistently trying to do some type of more physical activity each night. Tonight I ran for 2 minutes which you are probably thinking that is nothing but for me this was a great achievement because I am in no way shape or form a runner, but I have decided that I want to run a 5k in the fall to help me get into shape. So that is what I am doing. I am also watching again what I am eating (yes ok sometimes I watch it go straight into my mouth) but the point is that I am working towards a goal and I am to the best of my ability not trying to do any fab diets that I will gain twice as much weight back once I get off. And even though I look in the mirror and can find each and every flaw in me, I have to remember to think about all the things that I am proud of or have accomplished. For example my legs are getting stronger again and more muscular and I am so excited and maybe you can't really see it but I can feel it and really that's all that matters. So I encourage you to find the one part of you that you can be confident and let that help you get through all the other flaws you find in yourself. Also I hope I can encourage you on this healthy journey with me also, because it is so annoying to just see before and after pictures and then you wonder why it's not going so fast with you.

Have a great day.